Sunday, April 17, 2011

Of Nightmares, Habits, Movements et al.

This was one bad weekend! Not something that I wished for but something I had anticipated quite a while ago...We all know the feeling/instinct that comes to some of us regarding something....a foreboding, like a deja vu, that this isn't going to be good...I had that for quite sometime and so wasn't keen on doing some stuff over the weekend! However, the DH was hell-bent on having to do the same stuff that I wasn't keen on doing. So long story short, the stuff ended the way I had anticipated - badly - and in ways that I had not even dreamed of - horribly!!!
  After the eventful day and evening, the night was full of bizarre nightmares, making the lovely ritual of snuggling under covers, and waking up all fresh and ready for the next day - sour grape! Woke up more miserable than the night, but thanking heavens for keeping us all safe through the ordeal and heaping praises on God who somehow knows when exactly that we need him and being there for us...I am reminded of the "footprints on the sands of time" and how God carries us in times of trouble and doesn't even let us walk beside him. Somehow, we all go through that phase sometime or the other during the course of our lives...I, and am sure my entire family, feel blessed for being here alive, whole, and ready for all the course of events that are going to follow from now onwards....
    Of Habits - Sometimes, we do not want to listen to others. We feel that we as adults know what to do and what not to do and refuse to heed to what others have to say. We refuse to listen to even our dear ones. All this, when deep down we may either know the other person in right, or may really be ignorant of how the habit is affecting the family, or refuse to even think about the habit...However, there comes a time when we have to decide what is most important in our lives, what our priorities in life are, what are the things that are more important to us than following some habits and leading a lifestyle that best suits us. And when we come to the point when we have to make the decision, I hope and pray that we make the right decision as these determine our lives, the lives of those we love who are around us.
   Of Movements- To add to the misery of the weekend, my lil one refused to move- just the little flutters now and then that I was starting to feel- making me dread our next appointment and also at the same time, wondering if I need to call it an emergency and get to the hospital immediately! Well, after giving us - me and my DH a mighty scare- my li'l one is now moving- or rather making me feel his little movements..the flutters inside..Oh what joy it is to be a mom! Oh what joy! The unhappiness, the pain, the anxiety, the distrust, the disturbances, and all that is negative gets packed away with one tiny lil flutter. Again, we are truly blessed to have a wonderful God, who has granted to us women this heavenly duty of caring for the bit of ours - our tot- until he/she is ready to face the world!
 I haven't said it enough so here I go once more...THANK YOU GOD!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

தமிழுக்கு அமுதென்று பேர்...

தமிழர் அனைவருக்கும் என் இனிய தமிழ் புத்தாண்டு நல்வாழ்த்துக்கள். பதிவுகள் செய்ய ஆரம்பித்து சில நாட்களே அகியுள்ளமையால் என்ன எழுதுவதென்று யோசனையில் உள்ளேன். இந்நாளில் தமிழில் பதிவு செய்ய வேண்டும் என்ற ஆசையும் ஆர்வமும் உள்ளமையால் இதோ இந்த சிறிய முயற்சி. தமிழில் எழுதி பல ஆண்டுகள் ஆகிவிட்டன. பள்ளி நாட்களில் எழுதியது, படித்தது. எழுத்து பிழைகளின்றி எழுதும் சில மாணவிகளில் நானும் ஒருத்தி என்பதினால் எழுத தயங்குகிறேன். நக்கீரர் பரம்பரையோ என சிலர் கேலி செய்யும் அளவிற்கு இருந்த நான் இப்படி ஆனதுக்கு மிக முக்கிய காரணம் பள்ளிப்பருவம் முடிந்ததும் தமிழ் புத்தகங்களை படிக்காததுதான். வல்லினமா, இடையினமா என்ற வினா ஒவ்வொரு வாக்கியத்திலும் எழுகிறது. சந்திப்பிழைகள் உள்ளனவா என்ற அச்சம் உள்ளது. எதையோ பதிவு செய்ய தொடங்கி என் தயக்கத்தையும், அச்சத்தையும் பதிவு செய்கிறேன். இது எனக்கு ஒரு நல்ல பாடம். "சித்திரமும் கைபழக்கம் செந்தமிழும் நாப்பழக்கம்" என்பதுப்போல காலம் சிலவற்றை நாம் மறக்க காரணமாக இருக்கலாம். எனினும் அதை மறக்காமல் இருக்க நாம் முயற்சித்ததாக வேண்டும் என்ற ஒரு உணர்வை தந்துள்ளது. இது எனக்கு ஆரம்பமே..இனி தொடர்ந்து தமிழில் பதிவு செய்யப் போகிறேன் என்ற உறுதியுடன் என் பயணத்தை இன்று இங்கு முடிக்கிறேன்....மீண்டும் தொடரும்...

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Beauty in everything...

There is beauty in everything. Just look around! With spring here, there is so much beauty that my eyes cannot stop seeing. A couple of days ago, me and my friends, found a neat little pond with a fountain that had started and birds happily swimming across...Trees blooming everywhere with flowers - white, pink, red, and many more...Taking a minute to look at these, to stop and stare, to stop and admire, a minute is all we need. The above picture is actually the view from my room. I open my eyes to these beautiful flowers and cannot but help smile! "What a wonderful world ...." is the tune with which I am starting my day, everyday...thanks to nature's beauty and bounty!
So all you folks out there, take a minute to stop, admire, and smile at the beauty that nature has bestowed upon us in the name of spring...and feel the energy that these bring on to you!!!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Who am I?

It has been quite sometime that I wrote on this. And, I am starting to get a panic attack :) Am I going back to forgetting to blog, am I going to do something else, and all that. But, it is just that I had got a ton of other stuff to do and I do not want to blah blah on the blog that I have not done it. I was just thinking that I need a blog on myself! Who am I? What am I going to  achieve? What is important in a person's/my life? So let me go ahead with documenting a few things, without having to go on a blah blah blah of questions!
   I am a woman getting close to the thirties, getting close to accepting, loving, and understanding this stranger with whom I started sharing my life close to a year and a half ago, and getting closer to being  a mom of our first child, among other things. I am a working woman but would rather give that up in helping to raise a healthy, lovable, well-behaved, good son! Yup that's going to be my first-born - a son! I am reading and have in the past read so many books, and articles on how to raise children or be a good parent which put one seed onto my head. Teach your child by deeds rather than words; kids learn by watching rather than by listening. So here I am: with the start of a new career, a new wife, a newer mom, trying to get rid of all or at the very least most of my vices and trying to be a good role-model for my son as he is starting to grow inside me. I can see the difference, a difference, that never happened before in me as well. I am growing along with him, into a better, more responsible person. Well I tell myself if anyone can be a mom, I can! I am not perfect, cannot be perfect, but can make changes, accommodate new life styles to suit another tiny li'l one who is going to be taking up the largest part of our hearts....
...I cannot believe that I chose to write about my thoughts, ambitions, my life, and ended up writing about this lil guy ;) Anywyz now our life is going to revolve around this bud, so be it!